I am so happy that one of your YouTube videos crossed my path! In listening I found where my own behavior was working against the things/ people that I crave in my life. I found so many similarities in your story (prior self) to mine. Ambitious, go getter, there for everyone, busy, busy, busy….
I was able to put myself through a test this past weekend. I went solo to a different city to see a concert. I had no agenda other than to enjoy some much needed alone time and enjoy the concert. I was standing myself and a man that was standing by himself (waiting on friends) asked me what band I was there for (it was a festival). I answered his questions pleasantly but caught myself from talking a mile a minute etc. His friends showed up so I kept to myself but open. He then asked me if I wanted to join them as I was by myself and go get some drinks and food before the next band started. He asked what I would like without missing a beat when we were all deciding on food & drink – ordered for both of us and paid. My head went straight to ‘oh no – I should pay for the next round….what is he expecting by doing this?’ I heard your voice and calmed my monkey brain down and said Thank You. Turns out we all had tix in the same section but my seat was further back – they had an extra due to someone not coming and invited me to join them rather than sit by myself. I just went with the flow – I didn’t ask for a thing and ended up having a way better time than if I had done things the way I normally would or pursued the type of person that I normally would have. Me: Conservative but like Rock music/ Them: Bikers I am not one to judge a book by it’s cover – just trying to give you a reference. Anyway – The guy walked me to the ferry stop – asked for my phone number and checked that I made back to my hotel (via text) and next day that I made it home to MD. Who knows what the future holds, but I’m rolling with a new attitude 🙂